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Elizabeth (Betsy). Twenty-two, almost twenty-three, but perpetually seventeen. Whirls back & forth between vulgarity & delicacies like a dervish proper & has been known to disappear for months on end. Worshipper of Carroll, devotee of Lovecraft & BPAL hoarder absolute. Destined for the madhouse.
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Date: 2008-10-13 07:49 am (UTC)I'm here for you if you ever need it ♥
Also, I am clueless about most popular things. I would rather sit in my corner with my friends and be geeky. I've met amazing people this way, too! I don't really get along with other people, because of this. I told you in my last comment that after the drinking game fiasco I stopped drinking, so there's that to leave me out of it. I have done drugs in the past, but I took a step back after my mother and father found out and thought, "What am I doing? I don't want to become a disappointment." And I stopped. I feel like a better person for not doing these things, and you should too. They are stupid, pointless, and make people stupid. Feel better than the people who do drugs or drink, you don't want them as friends anyways.
It's definitely okay to want to be alone. I'm with you on that way. But if you feel lonely, it IS okay to complain about it. It isn't selfish, even though you chose to be alone. Sometimes we all feel like we need people. If you need to let it out, I encourage you to, completely. It doesn't have to be with dramatics like crying and screaming. It can be something like this - writing. Writing is just another version of crying, it's letting out the feelings so that you won't eventually explode.
I like you because you are a funny, caring, lovely girl. Not because I can look at you and think I'm better than you. No, definitely not. Especially since I'm diagnosed with depression and anxiety problems. I have no reason to think I'm better than you. On the contrary, I'm happy that I know you because you understand me, you're easy to talk to, you're there for me, and I feel comfortable talking to you about anything.
I don't think you're a waste of space. I don't think you're spineless. I think you're a beautiful girl that is going through some tough issues. I really do encourage you to talk to someone, call a hotline, or do whatever it takes. I love you very, very much, and I don't want you to feel bad about yourself, or anything like that. I want you to grow up, be successful, be happy, and be yourself.
I love you very much ♥ You have my number, call me if you need to. I'll be awake all night.