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[riverdresses]

Um.

Too much real life on here, not enough free stuff & fun things. So have some music!

Siouxsie & the Banshees - Sick Child

& nd I know I never knew you
your mind your pain I will melt your winter tears
If you say you will
if you could say you will

. . . .

Melancholia colliding out of mind
In a silver swirl I take a lungful in
Blow a fistful out if you could say you will

King of moon gloomy afternoon
Losing track of word & meter
Make your final touch people talk too much
Madman screams an unknown language

I ♥ this song like whoa right now. It's so deliciously Doctor/Master.

Echo & the Bunnymen - The Killing Moon

Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick & thin
He will wait until you give yourself to him

. . . .

Under a blue moon I saw you
So soon you'll take me
Up in your arms
Too late to beg you or cancel it
Though I know it must be the killing time
Unwillingly mine

I honestly hadn't listened to this song since my Supernatural days (& lately I totally miss that show) but I gave it a listen with (what else?) a Doctor/Master twist in mind & what do you know, it's another fabulous song for them! Plus, it makes me want to write a ridiculously long, dialogue-heavy, moody, mindfucking memory piece that ends with some decently half-angst-free sexing between the both of them. I won't, but fuck, this song makes me want that. Badly.

Tori Amos - I'm Not In Love (10cc cover)

I'm not in love
So don't forget it
It's just a silly phase
I'm going through
& just because
I call you up
Don't get me wrong
Don't think you got it made

. . .

I said
I'd like to see you
But then again
That doesn't mean you mean that much to me
So if i call you
Don't make a fuss
Don't tell your friends about the two of us

This is another song that makes me want to write some seriously depressing, miserable sex&memory fic for Ten & the Master. I might, actually, in the next prompt round I do, since I don't know if I could sustain the idea for over a thousand words successfully. Also, I feel like making the Doctor hurt a bit somehow. ::smiles rather innocently::

(& comment if you download please.)

I've been a bit lazy about working on most of the fics I should be doing. Not the sort of lazy where I'll never do them, just the sort of lazy where most of my brain has been eaten by one particular story, so the rest aren't getting as much attention as they should be. But I'll admit to being rather lazy/slack/slowed down on the Ten & River mixed-media second story I'm trying to shape out. Doing a mixed-media fic is a lot harder when you have to sustain it for several short pieces that all end up connecting into one story.

I'm hoping my Ten/Rose/Reinette piece will be started soon - I'm actually looking forward to working on that, even if I've only got half the logistics for how to get them all properly sexing at once worked out. But I'll just start putting down what I have & edit & restring it all afterward.

I've also got the next round of my strange, mixed-media ficlets to get back to working on - I'm both happy & utterly terrified of it being a second Doctor/Master round.

Beyond writing, I finished working on something for lost_little_nat tonight, now I just need to get it into the mail. (nooo, Tashi, I'm not telling you what it is yet!)

I also bought my first Moleskine yesterday. I wanted to buy a new purple pen to write in it with, but the type of pen I wanted I couldn't find at the drugstore. I may have to pay a visit elsewhere to see if they still make that sort.

I still haven't actually put anything in her it yet. I'm too afraid of desecrating the pages with my idiocy.

Can people name their Moleskines? Or is that strictly an Elizabeth-Betsy-Sunday sort of thing to do?

&&&

Lately, I've felt in-between names.

By that I mean, I feel like I'm still an Elizabeth, but I'm wondering if it's time to start exploring a new name for myself.

Sometimes I wonder if I really should just stay with one name forever, but there are so many beautiful names out there! How can a person decide they want to be known by one name for the rest of their lives? How do you do it? One name for the next eight or more decades of your life! I honestly can't even try & wrap my head around how people stay with one name for their whole lives sometimes. It's just so alien to me.

But then, so are most things people do.

&&&

My sleeping pattern is all wrong lately. Or really, I should say that it's all right suddenly. For the last few days I've been going to sleep at actual proper hours & waking up at decent hours, not staying up until my room's blue with light or sleeping until four in the afternoon, which is generally how I end up sleeping, though the hours can vary by a wide margin.

I suppose I just haven't been able to justify making myself stay up lately. But I hate sleeping too - I tend to lie there & just remember all of the awful things I've done in my life, or I pick away at myself for not being good enough at everything I do. Or I just tear myself down repeatedly until I fall asleep then forget it until the next moment of quiet I have the next day. But if I stay up when I'm tired, I just get even more erratic in my emotions & in my thought processes until I just can't form a normal, healthy thought of any kind.

Fuck. If you made it through my babble, you should have another song!

The Fratellis - Chelsea Dagger

Comments

[margarita-queen.livejournal.com]

You have awesome taste in music! ♥

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

Aww, thankyou! :D

[shanaqui]

I also bought my first Moleskine yesterday. I wanted to buy a new purple pen to write in it with, but the type of pen I wanted I couldn't find at the drugstore. I may have to pay a visit elsewhere to see if they still make that sort.

I always get nervous of writing in stuff and can't start.

*hugs for the last two paragraphs*

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

Me toooo. I think that's why I have so much trouble with keeping a paper diary.

::hugs you back:: ♥

[spoggly.livejournal.com]

A+ music.

OMG I feel you so hard on the sleeping thing; I do the same thing almost every night.

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

Thankyou! ::twinkles a bit::

Gah, I hate sleeping so much just for that. Well, that & the dreams I have sometimes. But mostly that. ::glomps you very hard::

[sandoz-iscariot.livejournal.com]

Moleskines are awesome. Don't be afraid to write in it!

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

I'm dying to get a city notebook - those look so fantastic! :D

[nyoka.livejournal.com]

I too love your taste in music. Thanks for sharing. Oh, and yeah, moleskins, ftw! I have yet to write in mine! So nervous! I feel like it has to be filled with things deep and significant. *sigh*

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

::blushes shyly:: Thankyou! Eeep, it seems I'm not the only one with Moleskine anxiety! What kind is yours?

[rayerai.livejournal.com]

I define my name--my name does not define me.

Or at least that's how I look at it.

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

I rather like that sentiment.

(but sometimes I forget it. Bad Betsy, no cookie.)

[arriterre.livejournal.com]

Siouxsie is brilliant.

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

I need more of her stuff - I have way too little of it.

[sonicbookmark.livejournal.com]

♥ You should come back to Supernatural (or Jsquared)! Just ignore the crazy wanktified fangirls!

♥ Maybe you could just think of a new middle name for yourself. Or tack on another name to the end of Elizabeth/Betsy. (And I'm totally not just saying that because it would be so difficult for me to think of you as anyone other than Betsy.)

♥ *hugs you and hugs you and hugs you and hugs you and hugs you and hugs you*

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

I DO miss Supernatural, but the fangirls & the fandom have just become so SCARY & not in the fun ways. ::sadfish:: But I miss the weekly parties we had & all the squee!

I could, but Sunday just doesn't line up properly with Elizabeth or Betsy! & Sunday is so very pretty. ::ponderponderponder::

::snugglies & meows in your ear for every hug::

[laii.livejournal.com]

I don't name my Moleskine, mostly because I use it for keeping track of what I'm supposed to be doing every day. I don't get uber creative with it.

Also, I'm still beta'ing. PROMISE! Today was my first day off and my roommate and I have been playing video games all day.

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

::snuggle::

You know me, I name everything, to most everyone's chagrin. ::laughs:: But is my Moleskine just sillyish?

& ZOMG TAKE YOUR TIME! I'll be patient, I promise! YOU HAS LIFE. I APPROVE OF THIS. So I shall be a patient kitty!

[geeky-webmaster.livejournal.com]

I think you should name your Moleskine! Don't think you can over-personalize anything, really; so what's the difference between doodling all over it and giving it a name? *snuggles*