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riverdresses::giggle:: At the risk of seeming rather distant, I really kind of enjoy being incommunicado for short spans of time on LiveJournal.
So, how about a real life update for your troubles?
So, my Thanksgiving, as in the actual holiday was much with the royal one hundred percent pure SUCK.
The Good
- Sucking down FOUR bottles of nonalcoholic cider mostly on my own. That shit is GOOD. I'd have it pumped into me intravenously if possible.
- Wearing shiny jingly scarves on my hips & over my jeans. I didn't wear my wings or boonie, but I rather wish I had!
The Bad
- I GOT CLOCKED IN THE FUCKING HEAD WITH A LARGE PIECE OF FUCKING PLYWOOD. IT HURT. A LOT. I had a headache all night & a duller one the next day. But beyond that, I was okay. No blood or anything, luckily. But still - PLYWOOD + BETSY'S HEAD = PAINFUL. WHAT THE FUCK.
- My cousins & their friends thought it would be quite fun to throw large spherical items at my chest hard enough to make me almost collapse because I couldn't breathe. Seriously, I almost did, I was in THAT much pain.
- I hit my head on a damn metal PIPE. AFTER getting clocked with the piece of wood.
& now a bit of a more serious note.
So, as most - or some of you know, my father isn't currently living with my mother & I, but that he lives next door. & you may or may not figure that it's because he hates my mother very much - but according to him, it's her doing that he's no longer over with us. I couldn't care either way, I hate him as it is. Saturday, which is the mandatory day I have to spend with him (to get our weekly food supplies - I hate doing it) was very . . . it was just not good. He screamed at me a lot & attacked my mother even more viciously than usual. He verbally attacks her almost every time I see him & sometimes me in the process. I'm working on ignoring his psychotic ranting because really, now I don't care what he says or thinks of me or her.
So . . . I don't really remember what happened mostly, beyond the screaming & coming home & whatnot, but I do remember coming home & talking to Mother & finally, really, telling her all of the things he says about her & me & how it is a constant thing every time I see him. I wasn't going to say anything at all, but she asked & wanted to know. So I told her.
& I really, almost completely, to the point of a physical collapse, started to cry. I was crying so hard I was shaking & thought I would throw up. I could barely recognise my own voice, I was talking so strangely. I scared my mother. & after I had stopped crying so badly she was holding me, I laid on my bed in a near goddamn catatonic state for almost twenty minutes to try & rebuild myself & to realise the utter foolishness of what I had just done.
I haven't had such a physical reaction to something like this in almost four years, after I had my breakdown. In fact, I would venture to say that if anything else had happened, I would have had a second breakdown after this. & it upsets me, because I've been doing so well for a while now. No suicidal thoughts (okay, not many) & no hurting myself, except once. I'm a good girl, right? I take all my medications & try & stay in my own little bubble of pink&pretty&love. Good girl, right?
Or not, considering how goddamn badly I wanted to open up new cuts on my arms after all of this. I didn't, but I wanted to sofuckingbadlyIcouldalmosttasteit.
I'm sorry for sounding so dramatic & little girlish & teenagerlike, I really am, but I just wanted to let this out. I'm sorry, I really am. But this sort of helps me feel better.
So, how about some shiny fanbunny news? Okay!
Well, I ASSUME you've all seen my last little note which 'discussed' the awesomeness of miss Vala - I WANT MORE VALA EPS PLZ. & more Vala/Daniel, because I've decided for them to have sex is QUITE POSSIBLY THE HOTTEST THING EVER & COULD POSSIBLY OUT-HOT JACK/DANIEL. (note, I said POSSIBLY!) But whatever, I NEED MORE VALA. & SOON.
Also, I've really been in the mood for Sam/Daniel fic lately. I've even had odd, little domestic Sam/Daniel plotbunnies dancing around in my head. I seem to have a kink for Daniel making/drinking/giving Sam tea in the mornings. Daniel/Tea = my AWWWW!inducing OTP. WHERE IS THE TEA!DRINKING!DANIEL FIC? Or the domestic!Sam/Daniel fic? I WANT.
& while we're on the topic of fic related to cute spacefaery archaeologists, remember how I said my Rivermuse returned a while ago?
Well, apparently, she didn't come alone.
Um, she brought Daniel along with her. (well, it DOES make sense, since I AM working on my River&Daniel ficlet, nein?)
So as of right now, my muses consist of a psychic teenage assassin & a dreamy archaeologist who is like a yo-yo when it comes to death. Awesome! ::hugs River&Daniel!muses::
(& lastly, I am really in love with Her Space Holiday.)
So, how about a real life update for your troubles?
So, my Thanksgiving, as in the actual holiday was much with the royal one hundred percent pure SUCK.
The Good
- Sucking down FOUR bottles of nonalcoholic cider mostly on my own. That shit is GOOD. I'd have it pumped into me intravenously if possible.
- Wearing shiny jingly scarves on my hips & over my jeans. I didn't wear my wings or boonie, but I rather wish I had!
The Bad
- I GOT CLOCKED IN THE FUCKING HEAD WITH A LARGE PIECE OF FUCKING PLYWOOD. IT HURT. A LOT. I had a headache all night & a duller one the next day. But beyond that, I was okay. No blood or anything, luckily. But still - PLYWOOD + BETSY'S HEAD = PAINFUL. WHAT THE FUCK.
- My cousins & their friends thought it would be quite fun to throw large spherical items at my chest hard enough to make me almost collapse because I couldn't breathe. Seriously, I almost did, I was in THAT much pain.
- I hit my head on a damn metal PIPE. AFTER getting clocked with the piece of wood.
& now a bit of a more serious note.
So, as most - or some of you know, my father isn't currently living with my mother & I, but that he lives next door. & you may or may not figure that it's because he hates my mother very much - but according to him, it's her doing that he's no longer over with us. I couldn't care either way, I hate him as it is. Saturday, which is the mandatory day I have to spend with him (to get our weekly food supplies - I hate doing it) was very . . . it was just not good. He screamed at me a lot & attacked my mother even more viciously than usual. He verbally attacks her almost every time I see him & sometimes me in the process. I'm working on ignoring his psychotic ranting because really, now I don't care what he says or thinks of me or her.
So . . . I don't really remember what happened mostly, beyond the screaming & coming home & whatnot, but I do remember coming home & talking to Mother & finally, really, telling her all of the things he says about her & me & how it is a constant thing every time I see him. I wasn't going to say anything at all, but she asked & wanted to know. So I told her.
& I really, almost completely, to the point of a physical collapse, started to cry. I was crying so hard I was shaking & thought I would throw up. I could barely recognise my own voice, I was talking so strangely. I scared my mother. & after I had stopped crying so badly she was holding me, I laid on my bed in a near goddamn catatonic state for almost twenty minutes to try & rebuild myself & to realise the utter foolishness of what I had just done.
I haven't had such a physical reaction to something like this in almost four years, after I had my breakdown. In fact, I would venture to say that if anything else had happened, I would have had a second breakdown after this. & it upsets me, because I've been doing so well for a while now. No suicidal thoughts (okay, not many) & no hurting myself, except once. I'm a good girl, right? I take all my medications & try & stay in my own little bubble of pink&pretty&love. Good girl, right?
Or not, considering how goddamn badly I wanted to open up new cuts on my arms after all of this. I didn't, but I wanted to sofuckingbadlyIcouldalmosttasteit.
I'm sorry for sounding so dramatic & little girlish & teenagerlike, I really am, but I just wanted to let this out. I'm sorry, I really am. But this sort of helps me feel better.
So, how about some shiny fanbunny news? Okay!
Well, I ASSUME you've all seen my last little note which 'discussed' the awesomeness of miss Vala - I WANT MORE VALA EPS PLZ. & more Vala/Daniel, because I've decided for them to have sex is QUITE POSSIBLY THE HOTTEST THING EVER & COULD POSSIBLY OUT-HOT JACK/DANIEL. (note, I said POSSIBLY!) But whatever, I NEED MORE VALA. & SOON.
Also, I've really been in the mood for Sam/Daniel fic lately. I've even had odd, little domestic Sam/Daniel plotbunnies dancing around in my head. I seem to have a kink for Daniel making/drinking/giving Sam tea in the mornings. Daniel/Tea = my AWWWW!inducing OTP. WHERE IS THE TEA!DRINKING!DANIEL FIC? Or the domestic!Sam/Daniel fic? I WANT.
& while we're on the topic of fic related to cute spacefaery archaeologists, remember how I said my Rivermuse returned a while ago?
Well, apparently, she didn't come alone.
Um, she brought Daniel along with her. (well, it DOES make sense, since I AM working on my River&Daniel ficlet, nein?)
So as of right now, my muses consist of a psychic teenage assassin & a dreamy archaeologist who is like a yo-yo when it comes to death. Awesome! ::hugs River&Daniel!muses::
(& lastly, I am really in love with Her Space Holiday.)
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Date: 2007-11-27 11:03 am (UTC)Tea and Daniel! Professor!Daniel and Tea! I am seriously not going to be functioning tomorrow.. my brain has been overload with THAT much hot.
AND I can't wait for the fic! *bounces*
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Date: 2007-11-30 03:14 am (UTC)DUDE. PROFESSOR!DANIEL MAKING TEA. IN HIS CLASSROOM JUST FOR HIM & THE PUPIL HE'S GIVING AN AFTER-CLASS STUDY SESSION TO. ::FLAILS:: Plus, he'd TOTALLY do that, because he is JUST that sweet!
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Date: 2007-11-30 05:53 am (UTC)TEA? IN HIS CLASSROOM? AFTER CLASS STUDY SESSION?? *FLAILS*
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Date: 2007-11-30 06:07 am (UTC)& YES. TEA IN HIS CLASSROOM & STUDY SESSIONS! (because Professor!Daniel TOTALLY is the kind of fellow who'll stay rather late grading his students' papers & enjoy a nice hot cup of tea or coffee as he does so. & OF COURSE he wouldn't mind helping out a poor girl struggling with her archeology thesis! ::sighs::)
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Date: 2007-11-30 06:18 am (UTC)TEA! NOW I WILL GO SCHOOL AND TRY AND GET TEA! Oh wait.. I think the cafe sells tea XD (*happy sigh* I WANT A PROFESSOR LIKE THAT.... BETTER YET I WANT THAT ONE! *clings to Professor!Daniel*)
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Date: 2007-11-30 06:31 am (UTC)HOODIE!RODNEY IS TOMORROW, YOU MEAN. :P I CAN'T WAIIIT!
OMG YES. GO HAVE TEA TOMORROW & DREAM ON PROFESSOR!DANIEL AS YOU DRINK IT. ::deep girlish sighs:: I. WANT. MY OWN PROFESSOR!DANIEL PLZ. (let's pretend he's drinking tea in my icon, shall we? :P)
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Date: 2007-11-30 08:18 am (UTC)*bops* SILLY, TOMORROW IS SATURDAY! How am I going to get tea at school on a Saturday?! SERIOUSLY.. PROFESSOR!DANIEL.. JUST.. WIN \o/
Actually, YOU KNOW WHAT? I AM GOING TO GO HAVE TEA RIGHT NOW! (because I need something to soothe my throat T___T) AND I WILL THINK OF PROFESSOR!DANIEL AS I DRINK IT!
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Date: 2007-11-27 02:19 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-11-30 03:08 am (UTC)♥ ♥ ♥
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Date: 2007-11-30 03:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-11-30 03:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-11-27 07:03 pm (UTC)♥ always my dear space-faerie.
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Date: 2007-11-30 03:22 am (UTC)::huggles&snuggles&dances with you:: i ♥ you.
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Date: 2007-11-27 07:42 pm (UTC)Heehee... well I'm not really into Vala/Daniel BUT Daniel/Tea... heeheeeeee sounds good to me :D Um... and as for domestic!Sam/Daniel, I've got this HUGE collossal (like as in 38 chapters) AU fic I did a few years ago. A certain, ahem, condition prompts Danny to be all domestic to Sam, bringing her tea and covering her up with a blanket and all that fuzzy stuff...heh. :D
I believe Jocelyn (aka pygmymuse) has some domestic!Sam/Daniel in her fic Breaking the Curse (http://thesciencetwins.com/fanfic/btc/index.html).
And then there's the Sam whumpage fic I'm writing, which will lead to all sorts of domesticity (is that a word?) from Daniel.
Hope some of this helps! :D
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Date: 2007-11-28 10:17 am (UTC)I'm still shocked that I'm so interested in Daniel/Vala myself - I'm a hardcore Jack/Daniel & Sam/Daniel girl most of the time! But gosh, Vala is just so WILD & aggressive . . . I like her with Daniel! ::giggles:: But I STILL say there should be more Daniel/Tea out there! It's such a sweet image! I'm actually fighting off Sam/Daniel tea!bunnies with a stick! ::pokes Daniel!muse::
& OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE RECS! I was looking for some domestic!Sam/Daniel last night & came up totally empty! Your recs were just what I needed! (& I'll be eagerly awaiting that Sam!whumpage!) & OOO, where might I find that big honkin' Domestic!Sam/Daniel AU of yours? :D
::HUGGLES YAH::
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Date: 2007-11-29 04:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-11-30 03:24 am (UTC)